My Mom

Many have asked why I've not been good about blogging since we've been home...This is the first time I've had the courage to share with all of you what has been happening in our lives...

We learned my mom had Pancreatic Cancer 3 weeks after we returned home from China; she had just turned 55 yrs old, July 31st. She was having medical tests while we were in China, for some stomach pain she had been having for several weeks...She knew she had lesions on her Pancreas, Liver, Hip and a tumor in her stomach, from the results of those tests, when we arrived home. She held off telling us right away...she said, "she didn't want to take away any of our joy..."

October 14, 2007

November 21st, 2007December 8th, 2007

December 29th,2007 We, along with many others, prayed for mom. We had faith God could heal her by intervention or through modern medicine, and we also knew that may not be His plan.

I watched my mom’s health decline rapidly, and it reminded of when my mom was diagnosed with Crohns disease. She was 32 and we nearly lost her before they found out what was wrong with her. I was about 8 yrs old the first time I had to think about no longer having my mom here on earth... But mom did well after her Crohns surgery in the 80's, and her cancer was not related to the Crohns. There are no words to express how caught off guard I felt when we found out or how diffcult the last 6 months have been with a new baby, that I am so grateful to God for, and watching my mom suddenly die from cancer at the same time.

Mom went to heaven on January 18th 2007.

To keep God's goodness throughout in perspective:

I have pictures of me and mom on vacations, at my high school graduation, my wedding, baby shower and with my daughter. I have mementos from places we’ve been together, and memories that I will treasure for the rest of my life. I am at an age that I can reflect on what mom taught me, her character, and her love for God, me, my dad, my sister, my husband, my daughter, her family and my dad’s family. I will think about mom and miss her for the rest of my life…I will want to pick up the phone to share a heartache, get her opinion, ask her for a recipe or to talk about Mattie Gail. I was not ready for mom to go. At the same time, I thank God and praise Him that He answered my family’s prayers 24 yrs. ago, the memories that I treasure, and for the legacy she left behind.

You may wonder how Mattie did through all of this. Mattie and I talked to my mom every day on the phone and we seen her as much as we could. For awhile now, when the phone rings, Mattie will put her hand up to her ear...it's very cute. After mom died, when Mattie would see a picture of my mom, or if she heard me say 'Grams', she would hold her hand up to her ear; she wanted to talk to her. Mattie loved my mom and she was a champ through all of this - she was everyone's sunshine in the rain.